idk if it my hormones or just hard still, tomorrow my grandfather b'day and his wedding anniversary he passed due to Complications from previous surgery they messed up on him we never got saygoodbye to him it been almost six years but still breaks me down every year. part of me wants to hide tomorrow but I hate being so down on his day. he was everything to me, my husband tries comfort me but I have depression but during pregnancy I haven't had depression that bad just a few moments where I cry alot for him. idk he just built me up after losing one of my eyes. miss him deeply. I just needed to let it out everyone in my family aren't too emotional attach like I was to him. me and my dad were attach to him very much. he died same day as my husband sister but.my heart feels broken there was no one like him in my life and loved me when everyone saw me as a freak after my eye .wish heaven had phone calls