Tinder 🙈! Wtf have I done!

Hi girls I’m Gemma 33yrs old,

Well where do I start! I went on my first date last Friday with the most hottest guy I’ve ever met in my life! I was Really punching above my weight !!

Well cut a very long story short he came to pick me up from my house to take me to a restaurant for our first date, bearing in mind we had never met face to face before , he text me from outside and said “ I think I’m here” I peaked through the window to check it wasn’t some weird guy in an anorak lol!

I opened the door and waved him in the house, why did I make this decision? I should of gone with the plan and got in his car and go for a nice meal and a glass of wine which I was needing so much as I was plain cold sobar ! I was soooo nervous, he came in and sat down and he starts talking about politics ffs I was lost on this subject?!? well we never made it to the restaurant we had hot passionate sex and omg it was sooo good! 6 hours later he left due to work the next day and I fell asleep that night smiling like a Cheshire Cat! He was like a tropical god he was white South African, came complete with an accent that made me melt even more! Muscles, sleeve tattoos, soft black hair the kind you can run your fingers through oh and very intelligent!

Well that was my first time dating since my 16 years relationship broke down!

Well he said we would go on a date the following Friday and actually go to a restaurant this time ! I was so excited, choosing dresses buying nice underwear!

Then I get the doomed text message “ it’s not you it’s me lark, something about his ex contacting him “ I was devastated and I put all my disappointment in a text message to him! He replied 3 hours later with “ are you ok?” I replied bluntly yes! Then I don’t here from him for over a week and he messaged me again this Friday asking what plans I have for the weekend, I replied “ I’m spending time with my daughter! He replies with “aww that’s nice mother and daughter time “! ?? What is all this about he’s not helping my situation with forgetting about him .

I can’t stop thinking about this tinder guy, I’m sure he’s a mythical stallion or something!

Or is this just what one night stands are like?

I’m dying to message him but I’m not I can’t show my weakness!

Give me some advice ladies! Is this just a one night stand or do you think I can make it to a second date with advice?

Or do I feel so strung up on him because I’ve never done anything like this before?

Oh I came of all dating websites due to this incident as I feel I will always get hurt! My thoughts are driving me crazy!