Hello everyone!!!

Soo let me start aaaaall the way from the beginning.

My SO have been together for 5 years (I’m 20 now) and he is the only man I’ve ever been in a relationship with or and sexually been with. We also have a 2 year old daughter and we have had alot of ups and downs. I am starting to become more attracted to other guys like guys would ask for my number and I would give it to them and I’ve even been on a ‘date’ with another man. I’ve never ever done anything like that before. (In my defense I didn’t kiss him or do anything physical with the man I went on a date with we just went out to eat)

My SO went through my phone and found out and I’ve aired all my truth out to him about why I’m not attracted to him anymore and everything and he says he is going to do better and I’ve agreed to let him try and do better.

So for me I want to be with somebody who supports his family and takes care of his family and helps out ( that’s me and what I like) but for the past 5 years I’ve been the one working everyday, paying the bills, cooking the dinner, cleaning the house, caring for our daughter while he sleeps all day. (In his defense he does work an overnight job with UPS, about 3 shifts a week that are 4 hours long)

I am a retail manager and I work about 50 hours a week sometime 12-14 hour shifts and when I come home there’s less, food all around, my daughter in a wet diaper and my SO complaining about how I don’t do anything around the house and that I work to much and don’t put my family first. He said to me “It should be the wife’s job to cook and clean and take care of the kids” when I’m at work to make up for his half of rent every month because he either calls out or leaves work early because he is to tired. Also, whenever rent comes around the corner he all of a sudden doesn’t have money to pay his half of rent and gets mad at me for asking about where all the money went. So let me make a diagram for everyone.

Monthly Rent: $1,450

Electric bill: $60

Groceries: $200

RAC: $140

My average Income a month: $2,600

SO average income a month: $1,800

Car note: $300

I pay the rent, electric bill, RAC and buy the groceries

He pays his Car-note and doesn’t have an explication or where the $1,500 is or why he doesn’t have it from his job.

When I have a little extra money left over and I wanted to buy a new pair of glasses he had an attitude and snapped at me in the eye doctors and said “Your really going to waste our money on some glasses?” We also haven’t had sex in almost 6 months. Just because I’m not interested in sex anymore with him and now I don’t know if I made the right choice with trying to make this relationship work, again?

What should I do and what do you think I know I’m at fault for a lot of it because I enable him to do what he does but all feedback is helpful! Thank you

P.S sorry for the long ass post 😂