Dear past, heart,& father

Natalie

Dear past,

I used to fear you, I don’t know why. you hurt me bad and at night I’d cry. I left you as you taught me what a broken heart would feel like. I’m over it all. You have no control over me or anything in my future. I fear I cannot trust a man, but that doesn’t stop me because I love and trust him with all my heart. You are through!

Dear heart,

I’m so sorry I broke you. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you. I put you through so much and yet you still keep beating. You deserve all the love in the world. People will hurt me, but I will keep my guard up so they do not hurt you. I understand it’s hard for you to trust yourself and fall back in love but no matter what the past is the past and we’ve let that go. I love you.

Dear father,

You raped me when I was 11. I cannot stand you and I will never look you in the eyes. I wish you knew what you’ve caused for me. Like how I don’t wanna have kids because I’m scared of what their dad would do while I turned my back. You don’t deserve to be walking the streets as a free man. I didn’t deserve that and I will never speak to you again.