this is just a rant, it feels like theres nowhere else I can do this without some people over reacting or just telling me it will eventually happen...

why.... why is it that (in my life) women who are bigger then me, have a poor eating habit and diet all the way around... and WITH pcos get pregnant... I swear out of ALL my friends, that I talk to on a regular basis, I'm the ONLY one who doesnt have a child, and everybody else around me does... people say theres something in the water.... welp, I must be drinking from the wrong got damn fountain... I've done things to change and better my life and here I still am with empty hands, just waiting for them to be filled with one thing I want more then anything... not only do I want it but my husband does to. he says hes ok if we never have kids biologically, hes definitely not opposed to adopting and neither am I dont get me wrong.... but I want that to be THE LAST option we have to face.... I'm ready for a doctor to tell me that I cant have kids, and then BOOM... I'm knocked up.... seems to be the case when that happens... I'm just tired of having failed rounds of both clomid and letrozole... I am honestly so damn close to throwing in the towel, it ain't even funny... I cant seem to go anywhere or be on any social media without a pregnancy being announced, or pictures of new borns.... it's a kick in the face every time, and a reminder that my body is an ass hole....I'm just so incredibly done at this point.... idek if I want to do this anymore...