WAS IT RAPE AND HOW SHOULD I FEEL😥

I've been dating this guy for a month and he wanted to have sex (we had sex before) . I said no and he held my arms tight and put it in me ..... I kept saying stop and get off but he didn't listen . I kept trying to push him off but i couldn't. I feel weird about it . I said no but he didn't listen . I need advice plzzzz help me out 😥😥❤