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So I have nowhere else to really tell this story without being judged so here we go. We have always known each other and despised each other in 5th grade. But after I was dumped by some friends I started hanging out with her (we will call her A). But not just her, her friends. (Which I'm friends with to this day except three) There were five boys G, J, C, B, and M and four girls including myself J, H, A, and Lydia (Me). All of them were a grade ahead of me except for A. So they went to 9th grade and A and I stayed behind in 8th grade together. At first everything was fine and she was my number one, my absolute bae, soul sister, and bff to the end. At the end of 8th grade year we got into a pretty big fight over a stupid boy. (I had no idea at the time that I liked girls or was ace) but we remained bff's. In 9th grade is when things started changing/I started noticing the changes. She was/is dealing with some issues and so was/am I. She started not eating and devolped anorexia and started cutting. As her bff I tired stopping her and getting her to eat but I was dealing with her issues and my issues but I always would put her 100% first. If she was depressed one day then you were required to feel depressed and comfort her (even if you were having the best day ever) and if she was happy that day no one could bring her down and she wouldn't help me if I was upset. She got some new friends which is fine with me. But then she started ignoring me and not even acknowledging I was there. I built up the courage to talk to her and she exploded. She said I didn't care about her and I only cared about myself. But I brushed it off and remained her friend. She would ignore me all day and then fight with me. She sent her male friend after me and he told me all I ever cared about was myself and I never cared about her if I cared I wouldn't be so jealous that she had new friends. (TO NOTE: I didn't care about these new friends they were nice to me but she started ignoring me all together I would try to talk but nothing) I needed to grow up and stop crying (I was having a panic attack everyday becuase of this) about someone who got new friends. Even through all of this I still sat and tried talking to her. Out of the woodworks (JK we are great friends and he's like a brother) came J and he kept telling me I shouldn't have to deal with this but I didn't listen. My friend Av (who I was okay friends with at the time) sat me down and told me I shouldn't be treated like this and I could sit at her table if I wanted. I had hope for A though maybe she'd come through. She was my bff we promised each other, we told each other secrets, said 'I love you' and all that stuff. I thought my bff would love me again if I just did what she said and didn't argue. I stopped hoping once she told me I was useless and that I never once cared about her and she was suppose to be there 24/7 for me and I was never there for her and there were days were she needed me and I completely didn't care. (I do have to see an abusive father and I'm not allowed my phone). I finally took Av's offer we are super close now it's a year later and I've never looked back J, B, and G are all still my really close friends and I made so many other friends that care about me. Note she still is really mean to me but I ignore her and try to tune her out. Her one friend said she was sorry for the way I was treated by A and the the girl's boyfriend who was the dude harssing That's my story thanks for reading.