Lost🤦🏽‍♀️

So on July 3rd, I found out my boyfriend/babydaddy was cheating(nothing sexual but he would have if she would have let him they were just talking hanging out and things like that I guess ) on me with a girl who’s friends with my younger cousin(she’s like 18 we are 22) I confronted him about it asking what did I do to deserve this and crying and things. And all he kept saying was okay okay okay. So I got super upset and I called him a “ punk ass bitch “ and he told me to get out of the home we shared together an I packed me some clothes and left.

Now it’s July 5th an I’m ready to go home, I hadn’t slept 1. Because I’m so used to sleeping with him & 2. Because this lil girl who’s been talking to my boyfriend was at the house I was at ( my older cousins house, all the family and friends were there for the 4th ) I felt super uncomfortable but no one knew what was going on besides me, her and my younger cousin.

Fast forward, I call him and I’m asking him if he’s home cause I wanna come home to sleep. He’s like no I’m at work & don’t come to my house unless you absolutely have no where else to go. Well I don’t have anywhere to go, most of my family does not mess with me because my mom turned her back on me & he honestly was all I had left. I only wanted to leave and go be with him. I told him I have no where to go & he’s like, well you can come here but you can’t sleep with him you have to sleep on the couch like ummmm what? I’m honestly thinking he’s just being a jerk till I get there an sit on the side of his bed and he flips out on me telling me things between us aren’t good and he don’t wanna sleep with me I need to go downstairs and get away from him.

So I got up and went downstairs searching for somewhere to go. I’m laying on the floor and I asked him to bring me my blanket that I always sleep with he brings it but throws it at me. At this point I’m livid and I got up put my shoes on and went to sit in my car.

He leaves(probably to go see another girl 🤣) and I call him asking him for some gas money so I could leave he’s like nope I’m not giving you any idc

So I’m sitting here crying like wtf I do to deserve this. He called me back and he’s like I want you gone be tomorrow my moms gone call yo mom and I want you gone. Im astound I’m like wow, so me pregnant and in pain go in the house and start packing up all my belongings. Taking bags out the house. Packing my car up all while I still DONT KNOW WHERE I AM GOING AND MY GAS TANK IS ON E LITERALLY UNDER THE LINE🤦🏽‍♀️

I finish putting everything in my car and I’m walking past him crying he had the nerve to say “ I don’t know what you crying for you the one got yourself in this situation “ I’m like wow

So I leave I’m calling the few friends I have they are all literally together out of town on a trip. Finally my friend is like call my mom she’s at home go to our house... now I’m driving an hour in a half crying sad HUNGRY and everything else in the book. ( my little cousin sent me $20 for gas THANKFULLY )

I call him just to like see if he’s serious and he tells me he really doesn’t care anymore and my tears mean nothing to him because I could have prevented this if I didn’t get so mad. So I’m crying even more now like he knows that I only had him we was supposed to be a family smh

I made it to my friends house now I’ve taken a shower CHANGED MY NUMBER & I’m just laying here because I don’t know how to sleep without him he’s a very affectionate person so he loved being all over me while he slept and I learned to not fall asleep until he’s home in bed doing that ...

I don’t really expect comments or anything I just wanted to vent about this cause I’m really hurt