My period has been gone for now two months I’m waiting for af . Every few days I feel like maybe I should pee on a test just in case . Sometimes I feel myself looking so hard at the test like “ That Could Be A Line ?” To the point I feel crazy.

After I had a mc and even tho I know I shouldn’t feel like I need a baby but some part of me does . The worse part is I do have 2 kids . Both happened to be unplanned . I don’t know maybe for once in my life I’d love to have control . Maybe be able to plan having a baby but I don’t think it’s gonna work . Anyone want to share any stories or vent ?

Also sorry if I sound ungrateful my kids are my world . Just My DH’s mother has nine kids and although I don’t want nine . I just always kinda thought the whole kids running everywhere thing was up my alley .