So overwhelmed with it all..

Hubby was out of town sun-wed for work, got home and jumped right back into work for the rest of the week, and took side jobs all day this sat&sun..; he works his ass off so I can stay home with our 2 year old son, and daughter to be, and I love him so much for it... but some days it just gets to be so overwhelming.

I’m 28+4 weeks preg, my car crapped out and we can’t currently afford to get a new one so I am almost always house bound with our toddler. Today I will be pulling weeds and prepping the yard for my husband to mow when he gets home, catching up on laundry, organizing the baby hand me downs I just received and getting the nursery together, cleaning out the fridge and preparing dinner... and somehow keeping my toddler entertained amidst it all🤷🏼‍♀️

I haven’t been away from our son since my husband and I took a vacation in January, not even a grocery trip alone (hell, not even a bathroom trip alone).. I’m never alone, but I feel SO SO alone. I miss my husband, and as horrible as it sounds I miss who I was before I was just a wife and a mother, and who we were as a young couple before kids and a mortgage and real life responsibilities..

I don’t dare complain to my husband, since I know my load is just a portion of his and he hates having to work so much and always being away from home as much as i hate him being away, there’s no sense in me making him feel any worse about it. And I don’t like complaining in general because I know there are so many people

out there that would kill to be in my shoes.. it just gets the best of me some days.