10 months.
Today, 10 months ago, I was stripped down and covered up in an OR room. I was scared. I was loopy. I was depressed.
I was preparing for my D&C.;
Yes, I chose a d&c.;
It was my decision.
I didn’t want to endure the natural miscarriage.. that was happening the morning of my appointment.
It started that night.
I was scared.
I was hurting.
I didn’t want to see my little lifeless baby.
My baby that I was supposed to protect.
I couldn’t do that.
I blamed myself for it all.
But, It was not my fault.
I chose to not have to “birth” my baby that had passed away.
I am upset.
I am destroyed.
I am struggling with TTC.
To all the mamas who lost their babies..
Do not give up hope.
Keep striving.
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