My best friend in the whole wide world just gave birth a few hours ago. We were TTC together, sharing our negative tests and excitement and worries. We got pregnant weeks apart. Our due dates were weeks apart. At 11 weeks we lost ours, she would have been born first. Tonight, my best friend had her baby and IM SO HAPPY but I’m also crushed. I cried when she sent me a photo. We live in different states or I would visit. I love her so much and am so proud and so happy but a part of me is so so so sad because we should be enjoying these first weeks together and it sucks. I miss my baby. I had to share somewhere where I wouldn’t be judged. I feel terrible for being envious and sad but it really sucks knowing I should have a baby right now too.