stuck

my dad and step mom are very conservative (against abortion, gay marriage, etc) but i’m living with them because i didn’t really have a better option. one of their requests is that i attend a “Bible believing” church so i found one that i enjoy and feel welcome at. the problem is that my dad and i don’t view the Bible the same way. i feel it’s more open for interpretation than he does. i believe that because God is so much higher than us, we can’t really know what exactly he means. anyway, we had this long conversation last night and at the end of it, i told him i’m bi. it was really hard and i just feel so vulnerable and raw. i just keep thinking “i want to go home” but this is my home. it just doesn’t feel like it. he essentially told me that i have to “work through it on my own” (pray the gay away?). i can’t keep ignoring these thoughts like i have been my whole life. i just feel very empty and numb and stuck in a place i don’t want to be.