WHAT HAVE I DONE!😭

I have just had a huge argument with my family over nothing but I could see that my boyfriend was unhappy. He said it’s because I spoke to him like shit...I didn’t realise so i denied it. After he put it into perspective had apologised but before this I told him I was thinking and going to kill myself 2 weeks prior.

Understandably he is very upset and he said to me we should call it a day until I sort my head out, he can’t even look at me and just feel so shut for making him feel like that and carry this burden.

I don’t know why I told him either. What can I do? I’ve fucked this up so bad😭😭😭