I just can’t handle how uncomfortable I am right now. I’m scared and I feel really pressured.

I am 11+2 today and my husband and I have known since about week 6. Ever since we found out about our first baby it’s been really hard to have full intimate contact with him because I’m always so tired/sick/physically hot.

I feel like he’s just always prowling and waiting for me to be ready. If I say I’ve had a good day he’s all up on me and kissing and I am having a lot of anxiety because I feel like there is all the pressure to preform for him (especially since he’s a recovering porn addict and I don’t want him to go back to it). There used to not be pressure and so we’d have sex frequently and lovingly. But since it’s now SO expected of me, I’m really anxious about it and doing it right.

To make matters worse: Last night, he kept grabbing me in my sleep and I was having nightmares because of it. He took melatonin so I’m not sure if he even remembers it. I’m just at a loss of how to deal with all this.