Okay let me explain this. I have this friend and she has been really close to me for a while well... okay we were bff's all through out elementary school and part of JH. I then hated that she was finding new friends and wanted her all to myself. (I had separation issues)we took a long break and freshmen year we bonded a lot and became friends. Now we talk all the time and I was the first person who she came out to as questioning saying she thinks she has a thing for girls. Today we are having a good conversation but she goes "Man I wish I could find a girl so I could know" (She wants to see if she'd like being with a girl) and I joked 'Maybe we should just date each other'. I said it as a joke but now I'm thinking I wasn't joking. I know that she hangs out with some questionable people and we should probably remain friends. Actually! I just remembered when I first came out as asexual homoromantic I said I had a crush on her. I know she won't feel the same even though I have no proof. Also she might have to move and I'll be heartbroken if she does. I don't know what I'm feeling help???