work is crazy

my best friend just had a baby and ended up in the hospital

my bf who's now my ex a

gave me an ultimatum about choosing my job or him and he then used the first time saying I love you to try and make everything about my not forgiving him for it. the sex was great but he constantly critiqued what I ate or when I went to the gym because he "cares" even though I told him that it hurts more than helps.

he called last night and now I'm way more confused I just cant give someone 100% of me and still have my job and my own mind. idk I'm just feeling down.