Hypochondria, Anxiety And TTC

Looking for advice. I have anxiety - but intermittent. When things are good I have no issues, but we’ve been TTC since last spring and ever since my anxiety has sky rocketed and now I’ve developed hypochondria. I google for hours each day. I’m currently on a leave of absence, hoping to restore some balance in my life (exercise, eating well, doing things that make me happy). Instead I’m eating my feelings and spending hours on google researching infertility and watching TV. It’s hurting our relationship.

I go to therapy once a month, walk the dogs once a day, eat fairly healthy (but too much)... I can’t decide if this is just a rough period in my life or one that warrants medication. My moms side of the family all takes SSRIs but are dependent on them and will use them for the rest of their lives. I’m scared to take them, I’m scared of being dependent on them, I’m distrustful that doctors hand these meds out too easily... but I also fear my anxiety is keeping me from getting pregnant. Feeling so lost and broken 😞