Feeling like such a bad mommy. 😭

My LO has been so hard recently. He wakes up still twice a night for 2 bottles. I try and let him cry but he gets so worked up he can't breathe!! so I can't even sleep train him. He fights his naps like crazy. He whines all day long. Nothing makes him happy. I try and get him out of the house but the just screams the whole time we go anywhere. So today I spent most of day letting him watch TV. Getting frustrated with him because he refused to nap. He didn't want to play. I'm was just so over it and tired. I am such a bad mommy. I hate myself right now.😞😞😞