hurting

Ju

November will be my 5 year anniversary with my husband. Just found out in April that he husband has a son who will be 5 years old in September. I am so broken hearted and not sure how to deal with this news. My husband did not want to have children with me...i am currently 43 and he is 47. It hurt but I understood. But now we find out he has a child from a fling with a 24 year old at the time. I am so hurt and broken. I don't know what to do. Now my husband says we can try to have a child but not sure that is what we should do. I cry so much. what am I suppose to do?