So I had/have this pregnancy care. It's gone on for two dragging months.

I've had periods, got Nexplanon, had 9 negative urine tests, and just recently had a negative blood test.

Why am I still afraid? With each test I'm like "okay this will be the test that confirms it and I won't be scared anymore"

But it doesn't take away my fear. Why?? A blood test is so accurate but why am I doubting it?

I keep thinking these twinges in my stomach is a possible child. Now I want to go a step further. I've been to my OBGYN quite a few times now and I'm certain she's getting annoyed because all the tests are coming back negative.

I don't know what to do. I've never been so OCD about something for so long.