Venting

So I was involved with this man for about 3months but knew him for a few years ... he’s my sisters boyfriends older brother. Since I had first met him I always thought ewwwww 😂 but something changed this past spring ... I was SPRUNG sounds corny but true lol I literally was head over heals for him, when we were together he treated me as if he wanted something serious with me we would be lovey dovey, kiss, cuddle but he also told me from the beginning he really wasn’t looking for more then just a friend with benefits so the signals were very mixed. Come to find out the first night we had sex is the night I conceived our angel. He was supposed to be “pulling out” apparently that doesn’t work too well !!! Well Sadly I didn’t know I was pregnant until my tube ruptured and had to have emergency surgery it was Ectopic 😢. I called him the morning the pain started and told him I took a test, I’m pregnant but somethings wrong. He rushed over, took me to the ER at 10am stayed with me the whole time I didn’t leave until 6am the next day. He took me to get my meds and all that. THEN A few days later I get a message from him saying we can’t keep doing this, we’ll never be together I don’t want you like that. Do y’all know how heart broken I was 😢 after everything we/ I just went through you tell me this shit. So I told him that’s fine I like you a lot but I respect what you’re saying just don’t think when I go to your house it’s to look at your face !!! He’s going to be in my life regardless because our siblings are together I’m at their house ALL the time.... sadly now he avoids me, since May I haven’t spoke to him when I see him I walk past him. It kills me every time 😩😩😩