Extremely frustrated and feeling defeated

I was previously married. We tried for 5years to get pregnant and it wasn’t working. Went through clomid and IVF. Got pregnant once, miscarried at 8 weeks and got pregnant off IVF but it was tubal and had to force a miscarriage at 7weeks. We divorced because I was basically told I’d never have kids of my own... along with many other issues, not having kids took the cake and we went separate ways.

Now I’m in a great relationship and happy. We decided to try for kids and by some miracle I got pregnant! Without needing any help but unfortunately lost the baby at 5-6weeks... so we’ve been really cracking down to try again. Even tried pre seed to help increase our chances... but af showed her face yesterday 😭 I feel like a failure. Through my infertility I’ve been diagnosed with severe endometriosis, lean pcos, anuovulatory (meaning I only ovulate maybe one time a year if I’m lucky), hormone imbalance and now a blocked tube... also my doctor states my age is decreasing my chances as well... 27 and being told at 30 I’ll probably need a full hysterectomy due to how bad my infertility issues are...

I just want tone baby... boy or girl, I don’t care... I just want to have one healthy child I get to grow and bond with... why is that so much to ask???

I’ve even changed my diet to be endo/pcos friendly and everything... I just don’t understand it...