I suffer a few this Such as Depression, ADHD, and Dyslexia. So if I have spelling errors And Sound confusing its bc of my emotions taking over.

I’m Hear because I wanna know if anyone else has ever felt like Their relationship isn’t working but You know You Feel this way about Him/Her/Them. But You can’t Seem to be Happy enough.

Even though they make you smile/cry/scream(bc you get scared)

I wanna know if My Darkness is just Taking Over And I have to get a Knew Medication bc Mine Haven’t really Been working.

I talk. Draw. And write stories for my friends to Read and look at and they tell me that they like them and Love that I wrote about how much I love My boyfriend and our story but I’m not sure why I don’t believe them.

Why I don’t feel happy anymore.

I’m scared.

I’m scared I’m gonna fall too far and Not be able to be happy ever again.

Now for where I talk about Why I feel like my Relationship might not be working.

Sometimes We aren’t on the same wave length. But We were for a long time. He... He looked at me like I wouldn’t break with a simple touch...

he would Tell me he loved me no matter what I did... and then when I tried to push him away... he just told me it was okay as long as I don’t try to again...

But...

I don’t think he loves me. At all... even before I Fucked up... I don’t feel like even Ever cared... but I tell myself if he didn’t he wouldn’t stop me so many times... from Falling to deep.

He doesn’t look at me like he loves me... or even likes me.. he looks at me like He is trying to fix me like I’m broken. Like He is Trying to make up for what happened a long time ago. When he broke my heart right in-front Of My Friend the same day I found out she was moving.

So is it just me... Am I trying to Convince myself I should leave? is it really not working? Should I just talk to him a little more and Try not to give up faith?

Because I’m running out of a lot of it right now...

I’m seriously in tears because I’m getting to overwhelmed.

I want my future to be written with him. Go to college with him. Raise a family with him. I’ve dreamt of it for years. And I still do... now more then ever but my faith feels like a Hour glass that I can’t flip over..

I’m I wrong to be scared?

That I will Go over the deep end and Tell him I’m done.

Should I just ignore my feelings and Try and Climb Back Into My happy place even though it’s all burned down.

The more Important Question’s Asked

Am I trying to Convince myself I should leave?

is it really not working?

Should I just talk to him a little more and Try not to give up faith?