i'm like so sad. i've always had low self confidence and pretty much 0 self esteem. last night this guy i used to have a crush on (but now we're good friends) and i got into it because i said i was ugly and he like told me to shut up and started naming what he liked about me. he meant well but it just made me more sad because he never said like that i was pretty or anything like that. he said he loved my personality and blah blah and that's sweet but for once i want to be the pretty one. not the smart one or the funny one but the pretty one. i want to walk into a room and take someone's breath away, or them point at me and be like wow shes beautiful. i've never felt truly beautiful and i don't think i ever will. i just wish that i was actually beautiful enough for a guy to look at me and think i'm the most beautiful girl in the world.