So this cycle was a very important (and VERY costly 💸💸) fertility cycle. We had a loss in October after our first <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a> cycle. I’m also switching to a new job that will make it harder to go to fertility appointments so we were putting it all into this one. So far it’s been great!! We have spiced up our sex life, been in great moods, etc. It’s honestly not been a too stressful cycle, or so I thought. We went to an appointment today and my ultrasound tech and I invited my husband into see the ultrasound. There she explained my follicle sizes, my uterus lining thickness, and showed us that I was about to ovulate!!!! She said it’s best if we have sex today through- Friday. Which isn’t an issue as we typically have sex several times a week, usually multiple times a day. Today would be best because once my egg drops there would be sperm waiting to fertilize it. Anyways, all is good and we go home. I’m excited, I dressed up all day, even wore a dress with a thong to tease him while in town. So I get home, break out the expensive preseed, get ready and we start trying to do the deed but he can’t!! He couldn’t get remotely hard. I tried to be flirtatious and act like it wasn’t an issue- sometimes it might take longer- but then he started to get flustered and his heart was beating so fast! He had trouble breathing and was clearly having a panic attack. He couldn’t stay off of me the last two days but now that he KNOWS that there’s a 100% chance of me ovulating (I don’t ovulate every cycle- hence the fertility treatments) he can’t get it up. I even warned him the last two nights that he wanted to do multiple sessions that he might want to tone down the sex until my fertile window so that he isn’t tired. He was like “oh no I’ll be fine” 🙄. I KNOW I’m not supposed to be mad at him. I know it’s a stressful situation. BUT after having several pints of blood drawn, the hormones from fertility medicine, the worst period I’ve ever had (I went three months without a period to where it came this month and tried to kill me) , to half a dozen vaginal ultrasounds and so many people looking up my hoo-hah, to eating a diet of only eggs, pineapples and pomegranate juice to grow my uterus lining (works btw), to missing work for my appointments and so much more....his ONLY job was to ejaculate in me during my O window 😫😫 So ladies, how do I not get mad that we missed the opportunity for today. I know there’s always tomorrow but when you spend a small fortune and all on this ovulation week, it’s frustrating to miss a fertile window day! I wanted to tell him it was ok- but after all the pain I went through this cycle I cant help being mad!