Baby shower

So last year I was pregnant and was already planning for the babyshower we literally had have two because of how big our family's was but then sadly the baby stop growing. But now I'm back and already planning. But as I'm sitting here I just remember that some of my family members wished me to have a miscarriage or say that's what I get or called my last child handicapped and my mother refused to take me to the hospital when being in pain! Now I don't want one and I surly don't want her in my labor room! or afterwards. I mostly got talked about a lot!!! Am I overreacting?! Give me y'all input