I feel dirty to admit this

But I can't even look at other pregnancy topics on this app besides March 2019 Babies and First Trimester without feeling emotional. I can't look at another cute baby bump without feeling so anxious because I wish it were me! I have always been impatient but this is torture. I wish I hadn't been so impatient in the beginning and found out at 3 week 5 days because now I'm 5 weeks and I feel like it's been a month!! I just want to be in the clear about miscarriage... I'm plagued with insanity over whether my symptoms are enough or if my excitement is useless to upcoming doom.

just wanted to get that off my chest. I'd do anything to skip to the end of September (and be pregnant still)