Scared about maternity leave

Hey guys! My maternity leave will be starting next week. I will be 34 weeks with twins which is honestly such a huge accomplishment. I feel like a lot of twin mamas have to go on leave sooner but I’ve been lucky enough to be able to push through. We have planned the bills and just on my fiancé’s check, we will make it. But of course that’s with no really extra spending money and praying nothing drastic happens. I still have this huge fear that we just won’t be able to make it. I’m scared he will resent me. I’m scared I’ll be forced to go back to work ASAP because we just can’t make it. I still feel so guilty about going on leave, especially when my induction isn’t for another 4 weeks (but babies can come at anytime now!) Is anyone else going on leave early and feeling super guilty? I’m afraid I will actually make it to my induction and I don’t know how I’m just going to sit at home all day! What did you guys do during your leave before the baby/babies came? My house has already been scrubbed and their room is all set up, since we didn’t know when they would come. I’m just such a worry worm 🤷‍♀️