Weight Problems

I’m 13 years old and I have trouble with my weight I’m going to 8th grade and I weigh roughly around 170 pounds☹️ I’m very insecure and a lot of people in my grade (boys and girls) Call me fat. I have a lot of friends but none of them really defend me🤷🏾‍♀️ I battled depression and suicidal thoughts and I even cut my self before🤦🏾‍♀️ my mom gave me some advice but it didn’t really help my whole family is disappointed in me for how much weight I’ve gained since 5th grade and I just want them to proud of me for once. I stopped caring about what’s important and started trying to impress others. I’ve tried many workout routines but it was too much pressure and I can’t do it. I’ve starved my self for several days before and I didn’t lose weight I just felt sick. I tried diets but they didn’t work I just feel forced to eat unhealthy. Does anyone have a workout routine or diet plan or just some advice to give me? It would really help me alot💔