I don’t want to do this anymore...

I have thrown up 3 times and it’s only 10:45 AM. I tried eating strawberries and just puked them straight up. The first 2 times I didn’t even eat anything. I’m 9 and a half weeks, this has been going on since 5 weeks. I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t say I don’t want this baby, but I just don’t want to deal with this anymore 😭 I’m crying so hard bc all I want to do is feel ok and no matter what I do I can’t. I feel so awful because I had a miscarriage my first pregnancy and I wanted nothing more than to be pregnant again but now that I am, I hate it. Is anyone else feeling the same, or has anyone else felt like this?