Hello!!! I just wanted to share my story. I grew up in a rural area, where being anything other than straight was a joke. I was a sheltered child, and until I enter 5th grade, I only knew the definition of get to be "happy" (this earned me a lot of stares and whispers during a lecture about synonyms, during which I learned that gay did not have the meaning of "happy" amongst my classmates). Anyways, I've always been a hook nerd, and failed to notice my friends and classmates blooming into raging heterosexuals. I finally took notice at 15, when my best friends started dating and had never looked at anyone as anything more than a friend, even while my parents pressured me to have crushes on boys. I knew I was different from my friends and family because I didnt want to date anyone. Hell, I had to Google a list of "attractive actors" so I could fake the rest of my way through high school. I even dated some guy who was a serious creep for a while to keep up my lie bc rumors were being spread about me. Anyways, at 15, i had discovered the internet and found the word that described me: "Asexual." Now I was born into a strict catholic family, and I prayed for years for got to make me straight. But I finally came to terms with the asexual spectrum in college, and came out to my close friends as demisexual. I have strong romantic and aesthetic attractions, and continued to say I was still "basically straight," even when I stumbled over words when I talked to pretty ladies and pretty guys alike. I've had a pretty awful battle with mental illness during all of these years, as well as being overweight, so finally this summer I made myself be completely honest to myself: my attraction is not sexual, but I can be romantically, emotionally, and aesthetically attracted to anyone. I have experienced sexual attraction for exactly one person in this world, someone who I had to get very close to emotionally before I felt the attraction. I've considered other words to describe myself, but honestly, my best descriptor is "queer demisexual."