Hi all just found out I’m pregnant with my rainbow baby. I lost my little girl in April at 13 weeks due to anencephaly a neural tube defect. She wasn’t compatible with life. It broke my soul losing her.

Fast forward to now and I’m around 3/4 weeks along. I found out today officially confirmed by bloods.

I am absolutely shitting myself. I am so afraid to feel happiness as I am so fearful that I will lose this baby to and I don’t think I’m ready for that.

I am numb and feel so shocked.

All I have ever wanted was to be a mum. I just don’t know how to move forward and feel the joy I felt with my little girl.