Getting to a healthy weight😊

Hello!!

First, let me start by saying I have always struggled with my weight of being over weight. When I was 8yrs old is when my struggle started I was super depressed because my mom and dad were getting divorced and I became an emotional eater because of my depression. I always maintained a weight of 190. Which for my heigh and age was awful! I am 5”0 tall and the 190 was during elementary and high school years. In 9th grade I was diagnosed with pcos and was told because of that I gain weight very easily and it sucked being told that! They gave me metformin and I was taking it for awhile and my weight went to 182. I than got even more depressed that I had myself taken off of it and switched to the birth control pill. I thought it would help well I went back to 190. Fast forward to me coming home for the summer at the end of my freshman year of college .... I was the heaviest I had ever been at 214lbs for my tiny little frame that was awful! So that summer I started what I thought was a weight loss journey I was so obsessed with losing weight I would go days with out eating and would only drink water and if I ate I would eat olives or pickles. Than I decided a human needs to eat so I would take laxatives before I ate so that I wouldn’t worry about the food I ate since it would leave just as fast as I ate. I was the smallest I had ever been at 170! I was so happy until my skin lost it color and my hair was falling out. I than realized in September of last year that I had developed an eating disorder by the water and only pickles and olives and than by the laxatives. I completely stopped what u was doing and began eating clean and healthy and I started going to my colleges gym I felt so much better about my self I was than maintaining 172! I got put back on metformin in April due to insulin resistance. My problem now is every time I come home from school I fall into old eating habits and I don’t eat clean and I eat junk and my body knows it and it’s telling me to stop I went from 172 when I came home in May to 186 as of today! My doctor told me my weight isn’t healthy for my height and as well as my pcos....which I am aware of and I’m comfortable with my body now but I would like to lose a couple more pounds just for overall health can any one give me and tips or advice to help me with breaking my good eating habits! Anything would help!! And I also want to mention I love water when I’m in college I only drink water green tea and the occasional juice! I love healthy foods so I don’t know what I’m doing wrong! Thank you in advanced! 😊😊