venting

Ladies I just really need to vent to someone and I don't have anyone who could relate at all. So I have really bad anxiety and depression but have been doing so well the past 6 months but I have had 3 complete breakdowns since getting pregnant (14 weeks today) third one was today bc i got into it with my mom and I cant really control my mouth or feelings at this point . I'm just so scared I'm going to lose my baby due to all of my stress and flipping out moments. I'm literally terrified of it and don't know what I'm going to do if it happens. I know everyone says be calm and don't stress anxiety doesn't really allow that to happen. No negative comments please i just really needed to get that out