Just venting 😔

I’m 18 and live in Greenville SC and this is really hard to cope with. Since I’ve gotten older I’ve realized that ppl weren’t really my friends just used me. I’ve been realized this but Ig since I’m in a quiet space it hit me hard again. It’s to the point where Idek how to talk to girls and keep it interesting or not seem awkward cus I’m just that not use to talking to girls. I have a loving bf but I’ve always wanted a girl bestfriend and a bf 🤷🏽‍♀️😢 i May as well tell some type of embarrassing story since my life isn’t so peachy anyways so yea here it is 🤧😰