I feel so hurt, lost and confused..

My world has been shattered....

Friday was the due date of my angel baby. I always felt it was a boy so we named him Jude. Today while driving my husband opened up to me that he heard from a friend about his own brother my BIL. At some point last fall he got his GF pregnant. Shortly after they broke up. Unknowingly to all of us he stayed in contactwith her throughout herpregnancy he was even at the hospital for the birth. They put the baby up for adoption. My heart breaks for them knowing they kept this secret. I know it was a boy which hurts even more because the birth was right around the same time I lost my baby boy. I would have taken that baby and loved him unconditionally. I’m so heartbroken that my BIL has this secret he’s been keeping for almost a year now. I wish he had let us in we would have done anything to help. All we know is it was a boy. We don’t know anything else not even the babies birthday.

I know he is with a family that loves him and will be amazing parents. I’m just hurt that my BIL kept this a secret for so long.

Hopefully one day he will search for his father and find another family that loves him even though we never knew about him or met him.

UPDATE: I never said it was about me. I was hurt that my BIL couldn’t come to my husband or I and tell us he was in trouble. We would have supported them in any decision they made. Husband and BIL used to be extremely close until about 1 year ago which now I see as when he and his ex found out that she was pregnant.

UPDATE: As it turns out everyone in my family knew except my husband and I. We are done with the family. Why keep secrets and lie when questioned about it. My husband is so hurt that his family was keeping him in the dark. His brother used to come to him for any and everything in his life. Families don’t hurt each other like that and get to remain like everything is fine.