FTM here! 👋🏻 Due in October. We’re team green 💚 so we aren’t finding out until this little chap shows it’s little face in the fall! 😍 This entire time people have been asking me what I hope the baby is and I just say that I don’t have a preference. Then they ask what I think it is and I always say “I have no idea.” Mostly because I don’t like to be wrong... just being honest! Haha! But secretly, I have hoped for a boy, but I think it’s a girl. Which I’m still totally psyched about!

Anyway, so I had a dream last night. It’s the first legitimate birth dream I’ve had and definitely the first crazy vivid pregnancy dream that has stayed with me for the entire day. I dreamed that I had a natural, unmedicated birth. 😳 The birth part was SO vivid, like I could feel the pain and the sweat and just... everything. Then when the baby was born, it was a girl. And I felt this love like I had never felt or ever felt was possible. I was like, obsessed with her. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I wanted to look at her 24/7 and didn’t want to stop holding her. Which, if any of you knew me, you would know how absolutely absurd that sounds. I’m not the... sentimental one. My husband is. 😂 (He’s a manly 6’2” mechanic and Army man, but he loves Nicholas Sparks novels, Hallmark movies and The Bachelorette. He’s a catch! 😉)

Then the dream flashed forward where we were obviously in the family room after labor and delivery, but it was just me and the baby. And I was trying to get her to breastfeed. I remember she finally latched and it was the strangest sensation. Like, it hurt, but it also felt okay. It felt weird though. And I remember saying in my dream out loud to my dream self “Holy shit! This is so weird! Haha!!” Suddenly, we were at home in her nursery and we were laying there on the glider in her room and she was just sleeping on me and I was crying. And then I woke up! 🤷🏼‍♀️

I don’t know what being an actual mom is like, just a step mom and that’s really freaking hard. But I do know, if the real thing is anything like that dream, I can’t wait! I can’t wait to meet this little baby I’m going to be obsessed with! I wonder if it’s really a girl in there.... 🤔 That would be crazy if it was right! I mean, EVERYONE is telling me they think it’s a boy. I’m the only one that thinks it’s a girl, but no one knows that. We shall see! 😎