wanting to try anal for the first time/suggestions?

Hey ladies.

So, I’ve been been w my hubby for about 8 years now. Never tried anal! but I want to but I’m so scared. I’m also a sexual assault survivor so I always protected my “butthole virginity”... anyways, so now I want to give up my brown hole to my hubby. I’ve read tons of water based lube and relaxing is key. How about most comfortable positions? should I try fingers first before his penis? Or should go all out and try his penis but slowly? Idk. I’m so scared but so anxious to try this. My sisters told me their scary first times. They’re BFs “accidentally” got them in their Stars (buttholes) and they said it made them cry and bleed.

Well I’m glad my husband is willing to be gentle w me. I’m mentally preparing myself before this Cos I want to now.