Here’s a second try. I am

Completely disabled. If I try to work even

Part time I quickly go psychotic to the point I have to be hospitalized. I have some

Income

From

Disability which comes to at most 1000 a month after paying for

The insurance. Cost of meds can very from

Little to 900 dollars a month depending on if the government stops giving me

Extra help on that. Wo meds I’m

Off the wall psychotic. I’m

Sure none of you really have a good understanding for how that feels. The last

Time

I was

In

The

Hospital two months and got a super

High amount of ect. Even when I was discharged I was psychotic pretty bad. Now if

You understand I’m

Disabled and completely unable to work. Let’s move on. My husband is both verbally and emotionally abusive. He’s also a chronic liar. He also for a long period

Would attempt

To crash the car w me

In it. Which obviously could cause severe bodily damage

If we did actually crash. I understand what everyone is saying about leaving. I’ve been searching my brain for at least a

Year now on

Whether there’s anyway to leave financially that’s sustainable long term. I have no ability to get on my feet financially any more

Than the max 1000 dollars a

Month. I

Would

Love to leave him but my situation is much more complicated than a woman who can work who stopped working for a while. I can’t work. Being deprived of food and

Shelter and meds is much worse than living w him. I’ve come

Up w ideas that would

Work in

The short

Run jUst barely but w increasing prices of things and not increasing

Amount of my disability quickly I won’t have money to cover food, shelter, electricity and meds. If anyone would

Like to be

Homeless for life yeah save leave and

Get back on

The feet I can’t do. I’ve had my illness since I was 21 and I’m now 37. There is no miraculous cure that’s going to come

My way and help me

Back on my feet. My doc says I’m

Disabled for

Life and that a

Cure is not happening after trying these many meds. Ok now please read all I’ve said if your going

To reply. How the hell

Do I deal w my situation. My therapist says there’s no way to leave and

My

Doctor said there’s unfortunately no way to leave. If you say get back on

Your feet and move on you’re not reading

The whole post. I would love to be able to do that and would be gone by now if I could. I totally know

He’s an

Asshole

A loser someone who’s completely toxic. And yes I would

Love to move on a find possibly someone better. I’m

Totally aware life is short. And

Yeah I’d love to open possibilities for

A better life. However food

Shelter

And meds are essential to just keep

Me

Alive.

Please don’t reply ignoring

That I’m completely disabled and the financial

Situation.