We have the only child in the church we’re attending. We just moved back to my hometown and my dad is the pastor here. They have a nursery room but since it’s only my DS (18 mos) I sit up there with him and listen to the sermon being piped in. The nursery has a security camera for safety purposes that I was told was turned off bc it’s only me with my own child.

Recently I was asked to stop nursing him in the nursery bc the camera is on and I was spotted on the monitor by the sound guy. It might be bc I am newly pregnant but I feel extremely offended and hurt that not only is the camera I was told was off, in fact on, but that I would get asked to stop taking care of my child and soothing him during church which is usually his nap time he’s cranky and hungry. I bring snacks but nothing else will do some times.

Again, it’s me alone in an upstairs room with my own child. And what am I going to do with the new baby? Just not nurse them?? Struggle to keep a cover on a flailing toddler? Changing churches is not an option bc my dad is the pastor and would be very hurt but I feel embarrassed and humiliated that an old church guy has been seeing my boobs all this time.

Am I overreacting? I’m tempted to just keep giving my DS the boob when he wants it and sound guy can get an eyeful but I don’t want it to reflect badly on my dad.