Pump and dump 😭

So I have to pump and dumb for a few days and I feel horrible about it. I’m on muscle relaxers because I pulled something in my neck/back that makes it hard for me to pick her up. The relaxers in the breastmilk are making her too sleepy. I know I need to take the medicine to let the muscle heal, but I hate that I have to waste so much milk that I’ve already pumped. We do have frozen breastmilk to give her, but I don’t think it will last long enough. I know formula is okay for her but I hate having to use it. I just feel like a failure even though I know this is for the best.