should i go back to using weed?

i had a quick minute when i didn’t smoke or take edibles bc i thought me doing it with my friends was just them stealing my weed trying to look cool and i couldn’t trust them. now i have a boyfriend who i adore and he stopped smoking around the same time i did and now we both miss it and agreed to only do it together and we both really wanna and i just need some help and advice. i honestly really miss the mindset it gave me and the stress relief i had. but doing it with my friends made me paranoid bc i’ve been snitched out in the passed so paaaaahleeze comment what you think plz n thank you 🖤🕊✨