DEVASTATED

My boy firmed and I moved in together about three months ago. He had been acting very distant but I just put it off as his personality and trying to get used to living together. He came home Saturday and told me he didn’t think it was going to work no more. I am in such shock I don’t know where to turn. He asked why my face looked like I had just seen a ghost. He seemed positive he doesn’t love me anymore and wasn’t to break up because he isn’t happy and doesn’t love me anymore. Now I have already gave up my place to move and have to move out because this is his families old house. I asked him to give it a month and he said no we already tried and it just isn’t working. He also said I could live there until I find another place and he would help me move but I didn’t feel comfortable doing that so I’m staying with my parents. I have never been so blindsided by a break up. I struggle with depression and anxiety anyway and now it’s at its all time high. I don’t want to live anymore. I wouldn’t kill myself but just wish I could just die to get out of this pain. I’m tired of living and being unhappy. I enjoy nothing anymore and now I just lost my whole future. The one I planned on marrying and having kids with. He just doesn’t love me and want to be with me. I tried to make him so happy but just want enough. I’m tired of life. I HATE it.