He cheated vent

I ignored all of the signs, it was just one of our down points, we always overcame everything. At least I thought that’s all it was. Little to my knowledge you were cheating on me with a girl you worked with. You were starting arguments everyday making me feel guilty when in reality you were the one doing wrong. We’ve been together for three years, I thought I knew everything you were capable of doing but I guess not. I’m only 19 & I was already preparing myself to be your wife, your 22 I expected so much more. I guess I finally understand age does not define maturity. Brushing me to the side to text and call a girl you barely even knew! You claim you only had sex with her once but it still hurts as if you did it repeatedly. Then again you also promised you would never cheat on me at all so I don’t know what to believe. It’s been two months & I’m still having trouble coping with all of this. You cried and begged for me to stay but where was all of this energy the past three years? Speaking of that we had just made 3 years and you cheated immediately afterwards, hell you probably was doing it for even longer than that. I decided to stay with you because I love you and deep down inside I feel you love me to, but if you really loved me would you had done this in the first place? You had everything you could have ever wanted! Why wasn’t that enough for you? Apart of me wants you to hurt the same way I’m hurting! For the past three years I was willing to work with you & help you grow. You’ve never been perfect, neither have I but you never had to question my loyalty! You always had problems when dealing with temptation but somehow you would always overcome it. We’ve had several conversations about the pictures you liked, the times I caught your eyes wandering looking at other girls, your overly friendly ways when it came to other girls, etc! Even through all of that I still could have never thought you would have sex in the same bed we’ve done it in countless times. How do you expect me to be the same way I was before through all of this?💔😫