This post is long so I apologize in advance, if you do end up reading it I appreciate it cause I just gotta get it out of my system;

My dad died when I was pregnant with my son this past October. He was barely 50 years old and died after a horrible stroke. The week prior I had gotten the call he was in the hospital so we rushed to South Carolina (I live in VA) and it’s indescribable the feeling you have when all your dad can do is look at you but not speak or move, you don’t know if he knows it’s you or if he knows what’s going on or if he’s in pain.

I had told him I was pregnant just two months before but he unknowingly had multiple mini strokes which explains why his reaction was kind of nonchalant which was the complete opposite in 2016 when I had announced to him but ended in miscarriage.

We spoke daily at LEAST 3-4 times a day, he didn’t have anyone, he buried his mom when he was 18, then his dad and sister died within the last 10 years as well. His phone was dead all of September which was the norm so I just waited until he got minutes which obviously never happened(in comes the guilt for not trying to reach out through my step brother).

Short story made long, the last two years have been complete hell, my father in law died unexpectedly in an accident nov 2016. We were trying for a baby for 3 years and ended up pregnant the end of 2016, miscarried January 2017, pregnant July 2017 and my dad dies October 2017. He never told my step brother or stepmom I was pregnant which is why I know he didn’t fully grasp what I told him when I announced last year. It just breaks my heart, literally it hurts sometimes. He taught me to always be tough but this has really tore me up. Everything he’s missing out on, I just hope he’s proud of me

Anyone else been through the death of a parent while pregnant?