So frustrating!!!

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9dpo bfn this morning with fmu using $tree test. It’s crazy because I feel so different from before af comes. Bloated, gassy, tender/full feeling in my uterus, really tired, but also not sleeping well at night. I just want to know already. I have a history of miscarriage so I have to get to the doc ASAP but doc won’t do blood test without a +hpt . I never get an early + so I don’t know why o keep testing. I just feel WAY different this month. I haven’t TTC in 7 years.