Masturbation

TW : rape

I was raped at 14, by my first ever boyfriend.. he was 16 going on 17.

But anyway, long story short.. due to this I’m not a very sexual person because I get so worried that I’m not good and I get so shy.. I’ve been with my current partner for almost a year (I’m nearly 18 and he’s almost 20) we’re sexual active but I shut myself off a lot of the time, he tells me I’m amazing and constantly compliments me when it comes to sex.

I struggle a lot to be confident and to relax which results in me never being able to orgasm.

so I’m thinking of starting to masturbate more to help, has anyone got any advice/tips?

(Sorry for the long post)