I'm so lonely. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend, I don't have many friends and I'm not in the best relationship with my family. My confidence is really low. I can't even look into people's eyes. I'm very shy. I just want someone to be my side but I can't even talk to people. I'm struggling with depression for 4 years now and I'm just done. I was getting better but now I'm in the same dark hole again and I can't get out. I started considering suicide again. I don't wanna die but I don't wanna be myself anymore too. I want to have a normal, loving family and family.I don't want to worry about money anymore. I want to live but my mind keeps me from it and I just wanna get better. I don't know what to do anymore.