So my husband is pretty much not even a little excited about this pregnancy. He told me he did it because I wanted it, and that, in so many words, he’ll basically tolerate the fact that we’re having another baby if it makes me happy.

I’m trying to come to terms with that. He is trying to feign interest and is doing what he can I guess.

My issue is that it’s very important for me that this birth is done as naturally as possible. I’ll need support. This is a scary thing, and I’ll need people around me who believe in me and want me to feel empowered and in control. I truly don’t think that he’s capable of making me feel that way. Bringing it up to him, he treats me like a crazy person and like I’m asking him to run a marathon.

I know a doula is pretty much the go-to option and I plan on hiring one. I’m just venting because I am so sad that he just totally refuses to share this with me and insists on making me feel crazy instead of strong and brave.

Ugh 😢 I feel so alone in this.